Lost in a daydream.

Can't sleep. So I thought I shall pen down some of my late night thoughts (or rather, early morning thoughts).

We got back our results today. & what I've gotten was better than what I thought. With that, I was expecting myself to be extremely pleased for the rest of the day. But the elation lasted for a mere 5 minutes. Subsequently I log on to the portal to check my results again (for ~5 times), fearing that I've mistaken what I've seen.

While the elation died down quickly, I was rather amped up & blabbered away (quite loudly I guess) about the exam questions we had..

..Of which I totally regretted because I've failed to realise that the release of exam results can be an extremely sensitive period & bringing up these "memories" is like a big taboo.

I must really start to think before I act. (This is like the worst trait ever! Gawddd)

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In retrospect, I was actually happier upon the completion of each good paper because I knew I did my best. That was of utmost importance, to me.

Being in pharmacy is not an easy feat. With so many outstanding individuals in the course, it really pushes you towards the wall.

However, I really don't agree with people who accuse their peers of studying hard so that they could step on the others to beat the bell curve.

I believe some studied hard because they have the passion & the genuine interest in their studies. While some others may do so out of the sense of responsibility they feel; be it as a student, child or a future breadwinner. Regardless, I feel like no one has the right to blame these people for studying hard because factually, their achievements are earned through real inputs. & I would also like to believe that all of us in our 20s no longer harbour those childish thoughts of wanting to do well in exams so that we could "beat" our peers. Honestly, I don't see what's so satisfying about it.

Grades really aren't everything. There are so many aspects in life & grades is just one tiny facet of it. Life is not wonderful if you have exceedingly outstanding grades but deficiencies in all the other aspects.

They should all strike a balance, or at least a chance to shift around in terms of priority.

Priorities. This is really what affects the outcome. If you can't sacrifice sleep/social life for grades then don't complain about those who've made the sacrifice.

For now, I really do think it's time for me to switch my priorities around. Too much has been placed on grades.